Thought Cloud 1: 'My Perception Lane'

I remember as a child coming home from playing with my cousins all day and having to change from my play clothes to my pajama's indicating that it was time to get some rest. Or in my words "The ending of all the fun." I didn't want that type of change in my life, at least that's what I told myself. Those hours of sleep I got once my dad turned the television off after I stayed up wanting to watch endless episodes of Mighty Morphin Power Rangers (The pink Ranger was my favorite btw)was a big reason I had energy the next day to do what it is I needed to do. I didn't realize that change in my activity each night was helping me.... Until now.

I got so used to thinking I knew who i was completely, what I liked, and where I was going that I drove down this lane I call 'My Own Perception Lane'that allowed my ego to blind me like fog during an early morning commute causing me to not see I was driving in the wrong direction. This was how I operated my brain it conformed to my perception of my life rejecting the magic that change created. I feared change as a kid, and the only time I allowed change is when it was forced on me most of the time leaving a negative effect on me overall. At the age of 15 or even 7 I didn't know that simply looking at change differently could create new laughter with new people, broaden my mind and allow room for growth, or even eating onions on cheese steaks and absolutely loving it. I started learning I was driving the wrong way on 'My Perception Lane' and needed make a u-turn ASAP! Our perception allows us to feel joy or sorrow. Perception comes from us meaning we have that control and choice to be joyful or aggravated. No, I don't live in LaLa Land I just realized my power and decided i will not continuing tainting my window of perception.  

As I grew in life and age I started running into change rather voluntarily or involuntary I ran into such as: Career change, lively hood change, phone carrier change, sh*t even hair color change. But, what I possess now that I didn't have before was the choice of my view of it. A few years ago I thought I hit rock bottom one day as I sat in my dimly lit room questioning my entire ability and talents. It was because my perception interpreted my situation at the time as I had 'Hit Rock Bottom' which left negativity energy in my space. I didn't see that at that time in life I was building my endurance, I was still alive and well, and all was not lost but a chance to grow again because of 'Change'. Today I see the light even in dark days, break ups, sewing errors, and just the many things that I experience in life. This allows me to retain my joy that many seek to have.

Dear Reader, If you are feeling like life is hard and that you do not have the best of luck, Seek Change! Turn that car around on 'My perception Lane' and turn those lemons into lemonade (Thanks for the metaphor Beyonce). Look at your situation from a new view and see the greater good that exists in the fog!
'Much Love to you All' 
-Qaysean Roe